my Kryptonite II

"I will take you as my wife, forever. Until death do us apart"

-230314

Lets start writing vows, bitches.

:)

hadiah dari langit.

apa ini rezeki aku
apa ini ujian buat dia?

Hai kamu.
apa kamu telah bersedia?

aku ini.
berjuta cacat cela.
benar.
yang pasti apa pun-
apa pun anggapan kamu;
pokoknya aku jauh dari sempurna.


manakala kamu.
terlalu jauh bezanya kita;
baik perilakunya
manis rupanya
lembut percakapannya
bijak percaturannya.
tajam pemikirannya.


maka;
cocok kah kita?
perkenalan ini untuk apa?



apa ini mimpi indah aku
apa ini pengajaran buat kamu?

the most stupid question in the world.

"we're friends, right?"



entah patut kalau rasa tak sedap hati harus pendam diam diam
im sucker for this obvious statement but i had to know.
sebab dah bertahun salah anggap and now i dont want that to happen ever again.


its nearly 2014
and its funny how i am the one who excited about you being 30.
or 3 series as u called it.
maybe im just scared.
that you would turn desperate and choose those girls
over me.
or maybe
im afraid that you giving up
and end up being alone.


just like your wild dream
you told everytime before we go to sleep.

5 minutes drive distance.

ni sedang bermain dengan api ke
bara ke
salji ke
hujan ke
tatau.


yang tau sekarang tengah terbang bagai secebis bulu burung
yang wusshh wussssh
macam ke hulu ke hilir tak heran apa
langgar tiang terhentak dinding
sikit tak perduli.


"hati-hati" mereka pesan
"terus terang" mereka gesa
"sudah sudahlah" kata mereka.

sabar beb.
wa belum puas.

20/11/2013

And they love it!

To you they crawl, body sprawl 

Smokin' Pall Malls

Close call, stand tall

Doll, you make them feel so small

yada yada.

"I'm waiting for you"

"For what?"
"To leave me"
"Why would I?"



you will. one way or another.
you will see flaws in me and hated it.
you will taste the sweet turning sour.
you will have to face the fact that im not as you expect me to be.

i had nothing left to serve you.
nothing to gave
while demanding the world from you.

i will give you nothing but burdens.
Now you tell me;


"When are you leaving? "

november love.

hello bitches.


life getting better, shit still happens.
whatever.


sekarang dah boleh get over cinta hati 3 tahun lepas tu jumpa syaitan yang sikit lebih kurang macam sebelum sebelumnya malah mungkin lagi syaitan tapi entah kenapa memang secara azalinya akan hanya berselera dengan syaitan nirojim neraka ke tujuh.


he has done everything in the hell guidance book.
everything.
the oh-no-no-no-you-are-not-going-to-marry-this-guy-why-in-the-earth-you-wasting-your-time-money-love-and-future-with-this-shit type of guy.

tapi tahukah kalian, lelaki ini lah yang paling delicous antara mereka?
haha. till then bitches.
more heart broken , self destructive writing are about to come.